A Hopeful Tear

i think about you now 

i linger on your goodness 

the memory of your heart 

the pain you feel no more 

im grateful you can rest now 

still the day that you awake 

remains the only one i live for 

i know every hour brings us closer 

yet selfishly i plead with the heavens 

for just one minute in your company 

i'd give a thousand more 

the pain of life without you deepens 

and burrows deep within my soul 

in its wake leaving emptyness 

a loney hollow behind my eyes 

further from the surface it crawls 

and far within my cries intensify 

hearing your name 

creates a tightness in my chest 

the memory of your words 

slice sharply to my core 

i struggle with the contradiction 

numbness and agony in one breath 

for some little comfort 

through those endless nights 

my echoing thoughts take over 

tearfully i think of things i'll say to you 

when we're together finally 

but mundane words just seem so foolish 

when smiling, i could hold you silently 

and spend forever tight within your arms 

always your daughter 

you'll be my mother once again

Charlotte Gardiner - January 2010